Sometimes, I stop and think for a long time. Then realised all the time spent thinking are just wasted because often the things I think about don't give me any conclusions. But I guess the process of thinking stuff through does help sometimes, to perhaps relieve certain of those burdens of you would say, bring you through a slower motion of things, helping you understand certain situation better.

I realised my blog is locked, so I can very well write about stuff like never before.

Sometimes, I feel like strangling my juniors because they keep calling me emo. Just cause I thought I trusted this guy a little more (just cause he nicely asked me how to do backstage and asked how was I), I thought I'd reveal a little more about myself. It nicely backfired though. That idiot calls me that even up till now. Sigh.

I would like to kill my junior whose still stuck in secondary school because he keeps pestering me over some.. rumours. Like no shit, I won't attend the june camp ( I would attend it alone even if I would) and certain people really pisses me off. Enough said.

After hours, I finally recalled that I wanted to talk abt fear. The fear of taking one step forward because you are afraid that you might not have the courage to take the other. I think this is what's constantly stopping me from moving forward, or rather trying to move forward. It's because of this fear that the same thing might happen in the near future. Of course, that includes the fear of rejection, saying the wrong stuff, fear of failure. They say no pain, no gain. Do you have to go through the pain to gain something? I don't really know if it's definite.

Living in my heart ♥
This song is sad. But I like. Which brings me to the point, Mohd should not comment on my status unnecessarily whenever he well, does not like it (Because I'm quite sure my whole wall will be spammed). Even though it's a very sad song and totally makes no sense with regards on what I'm gonna write, I still think it's.. nice. I'm not sad because of well songs. I'm not sad because I'm well stuck in the past. Nono. I'm just sad because I don't know how to move on from here. It's more of things to do with the future. Like what am I going to do with well people, relationships, my job. These few days have been spent spazzing to siying about ___ which makes me confirm that it's not ITILU, but it's ILU. And I so totally agree it's easy to like someone but hard to love someone ): So it's a like. I hope it stays that way because I know everything will mess up if I go beyond that. After all, I never fail to mess up relationships. NEVER. Just let it live in my heart ♥.

Chapel tmrw. Hope the week starts off well.

MSN kind of fails me again, causing me being not able to talk to people. ):

I shall stop thinking about it now. No, who am I trying to kid. I'll still end up thinking about it.