Early in the morning went to school and was asked by Ms Mano to meet her during recess. At first actually wondered what happened but well it was for oral and somemore need to meet her for the whole week >.< But at least can improve my oral, cause i can't seem to speak very well. If only i was a fluent speaker.. Then i would have no problems with speeches and stuff but well, i guessed this kind of thing can't be help.

During Chem, Ms Liang changed my seat =( Sian larh, now the 3 musketeers have to be seperated totally from each other XD Kinda of sad, but then it's only for Chem and Phy =P Guessed i just have to bear with it, the boring-ness of the lessons without the accompany of friends around you. It can't be help yet again.

We were actually called back for CCA. We refers to Clement, Kester and me. Called back cause they dunno what to do with the Sec 1s i guessed. Got pretty disturbed by some smart guy who somehow thinks that he knows everything in the world. Just cause he is merely brushing against the surface of the water doesn't mean that he knows everything. Really, is it really fun to make fun of someone's love for another person. I mean this kind of things would normally only be something that Primary school children do, unless of cause you are telling me that he is one. I mean this kind of thing is really based on how matured your mind is. At the way he said such things and tried to expose it to the whole world, it only clearly comes to show how mature this particular person is. Of cause, i'm not saying i'm very matured, in fact, i can be childish at times, but well at least we are now in Sec 4s, we should at least show the basic courtesy of not trying to poke into other's businesses, unless as a friend. But since when am i a friend to him? This can be pretty much shown in the way he teased at me in Taiwan. Was it really funny? I think the only thing that i could have done was to ask him to grow up. I got my revenge soon after. Not by force, not by conspiring, but by chance. Jumped into a pool of water unintentionally (Well, it's rainning cats and dogs) and splashed it all over his body, at least i think this kind of thing is like kind of a retribution for trying to make things difficult for me. At least i've got the courage to admit it, not like you. At the same time, i also hoped that one day i might be able to tell her in person, " i love you!", at least after that i might have no other regrets cause that's the only thing that holds me back all this while.

The rain never fails to bring me back great memories of Rainer, our Ex-Vice President. Having him around is like makes life more fun. At least for a bit. But it rained with a freaking setting SUN!!! Rain and Sun don't go together. Just like me and her, but since we were never meant to be together, why in the first place, there seems so much of false hopes lying around.. So much so that i hardly is able to let go of this should i say relationship? Tried to keep cheerful people around me, so at least the atmosphere is not so down. Laughed when they laughed. But is never the same as you did it naturally without much hesitation.

The feeling of rain against the skin. How i wished i could walked in the rain without a care whether i will be sick the next day. How i wished the 2 pesons under the umbrella would be me and her. The dull atmosphere in the air around evening time. It brought my mood down for a while. It's something that yet again can't be help. Actually i should be grateful for having a shelter over my head, but then it seems that i'm grumbling over things that most people won't want to happen and i want it to happen. Walking in the rain isn't what most people wants, at least the getting wet part prevents them from doing so.

Certainly, in life there's lots of things that can't be held but then think of it this way, there are 2 ways things can't be help. One which is because of the environment and two is cause of what you did and led to other consequences. I guess mostly mine's the first, things that i can't seem to be able to do a thing about.

Labels: Childish-ness, Rain