I'm trying to be a normal person... Trying to post about my 'O' levels results like any other normal blogger would... I guess i will keep the number in suspense. It isn't a number to be proud of neither to be ashamed of. Yeah i just underwent 'growing up'. Cause i finally left my immature dreams of a young 16;x Yeah lurh, i fare badly, in fact very badly for English.. Ahhhhhh, i totally screwed it up. Maybe i did badly in the oral or maybe the written papers. Aiyaaaaaa heck, freaking vex-ed over the necessary and now i'm thinking about the unnecessary. Ahhh shyt am i gonna work as a psychiatrist/psychologist/teacher or am i gonna just wait and see what happens. i guess for a score like mine should probably choose ACJC, but i dun like that !@#$ school-.- i dun like the ppl in it larh for no reason. Dun like means dun like doesn't nid a reason huh. Yeah she's probably gonna choose there somehow i got a feeling ;x cos anyone normal person'd choose acjc considering they are in fairfield with affliation to acjc. Well, this is gonna be the career path that i gonna take for the rest of my life.. ahhhhh, i'm hanging in the air and sad-ed like no one's business cos this world is just this cruel=__=

I've been supressing my feelings for a long time now, could explode anytime now huh=.= sickening, no one knows what i've been through and then they accuse me of not wanting to go this and that. Blardy hell, this is the road that i gonna take for the rest of my life, can't i very well have the choice. I thought only those who scored badly will start thinking very hard, well now those that scored well too. Anw, the reason that i didn't wanna get into the same sch as her is because i dunno whether i'm able to surpress my emotions and i really really can't promise i won't try to go after her again. I dunno i'm so in a mess..

Nvm, i guess i'm satisfied with my combined humanities... <3 the BT(s).. Mrs Wong came back to teach o.o and she slim down so much.. Yeah besides that the rest are within expectation except, Chem, everyone didn't expect it, all A2s.. one word to describe-Anihilated.


Look at what i'm doing before the history prelims-.- folding paper cranes. I thought that'd explain my downfall of CH during prelims.. Sigh stupidity has always been my shadow... It was, it is and i expect it to be. *speechless*

Labels: Coincidence, Psychology, Results, Supress

Sometimes, i really think that she's been trying to avoid me... But all that's just what i think without any evidence or whatsoever, but her actions did caught my attention... She just don't seem to want to talk to me. Orh wells..
Yeah and i liked this quote which came out pretty strongly during chapel.

"Luck is when preparation meets opportunity"

So i see, i used to say that exams need lots of luck, so i think i got to change it to opportunity, in this case chances to perform... Looks like when i said i need a little more luck, it's more of the opportunity part than preparations.

It's just the beginning.Yep, the receiving of prelims result just signalled the start of another imminient race, one in which we have been waiting for 4 whole years... But i just can't seem to settle myself down. My thoughts just go wild at times.

Wonder how she's did for her prelims... Still i'm always just a phone call away if you need me...



Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will
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I promise i will be there when you need me.


If i ever hug you, would you push me away?

Labels: Confusion, Promise, Results

Took class photo and CCA photo. This is the last year (hopefully) in the school and probably the last group photo that we are going to take as a class or a CCA. I think that was the greatest smile that i gave within this 2 months, afterall, i didn't wanna spoil the photo and we took a keyboard for informal media photo, how cool is that haha.

I received my final result yesterday and that nailed my coffin...
Basically i got...
English : C5
Chinese : A1
Emaths : A1
Amaths : A1
Biology: A2
Chemistry: A1
Physics : B3
Social Studies / History : B3

Frankily, i'm quite surprised that i could have scored this kind of results because those events that took place really put me in a most vulnerable position. Maybe i could concentrate better but then again i'm not that sure that is it i could concentrate better or i'm just using the times i used to study to tranqulise the pain that i had inside me.

Being proud and humble. I belived there are times when we felt proud and yet unable to humble ourselves down because of little achievements that we have obtained. Well, the speaker for chapel yesterday talked about humility which totally i've no idea on what his been talking about. But there's something in which i listened and thought about it for quite a while. That was when he said that the proud never says sorry. Sorry, a simple word, powerful enough to heal a wound, however, if missing could lead to excessive bleeding. Most of the time i don't really receive many sorries from her, maybe because either she refused to admit her mistake even if she was proud or she just want to win. But, in a relationship between a guy and a girl,during an arguement, the objective is to find a way to solve the problems and not quarrel endlessly to win, that way doesn't that make the relationship more everlasting? Everytime we argued about something, i've been trying so hard to resolve it but still somehow no matter what i say, it just doesn't seem to get into her. Is it really that hard? Hmm, maybe it's just......

Oh ya and the girl on 33, don't get too sad over your marks okay?=P There's still some time for you to catch up and score well in the Os, so meanwhile just hang in there and you will be fine. Don't EMO OKAY XD EMO no good for life, instead watch more Elmo, maybe you will laugh more ;D

I watched the 9pm show daily and one of the actors inside said that whether a person liked you, more or less you should have known it. In my case, i can't seem to guess what she's been thinking and whether do she have any feelings for me, because she is like 2 different person, totally different from the past when compared to now. It's like the attitude totally changed. Maybe because she don't want to have another slight hope that we might still be together and in this way making sure that i will hate her, making things awkward and all. But if i'm not wrong, i did loved.

如果我失去记忆,是否还会记得你.

, Quoted from Christina's personal msg.

I really wondered if one day i were to lose all my memories. If i totally forgotten about this world that doesn't have much worthy of me to remember of, will i still be able to remember her, remember the awkward times that we have, remember the cruel moement that she said we are not meant for each other. I mean this kind of memories, is it worth remembering? Maybe it will just hurt even more if i were to remember what had happened, then again, i never wanna forget those times, and of course her smiles because i just know deep down in my heart, i never wanna forget those.


I hope the right moment comes...

Labels: Results, Uncertainty