I have lots of inspiration to start this post but i dunno where to start. Maybe, there are some ppl out there who wants to know what are my choices, just maybe.

1st : ACJC.
2nd : AJC.
3rd : SP (Human Resource Management with Psychology)
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And the list goes on. I guess there's not a need for me to cont. writing my choices since by the third i will get in. yes, at this moment while u are reading this, u might find me hypocritical, Why would one that keep saying he hates a school so much wants to go to that school. I feel for everything i did i do for a reason, and i feel there's not a need for me to explain myself cause i dun see the need to. It's a long and boring story anyway, so if u are a friend dun ask me. Perhaps, crying is part of that decision making, maybe this will make u stop probing. Afterall i feel i no longer need to be accountable to anybody.

I saw this person making fun of another on the facebook wall. Saying how this person used to be short. But that's not the point. i think it's better to start growing later physically cause somehow the later u develop or rather start your puberty, somehow u end up taller. While i'm comparing this effect of growing up sooner or later, it got me thinking does that mean the same mentally? The maturity of the mind. I really feel it's likewise same as growing up physically. It's really better to mature later. Because u get to enjoy what's left of a child's innocent. I remember when i was a boy, i could do anything funny and not cared abt how ppl thinks, but when i grew up to be a teen, i realised i threw all of my innocent thoughts, words and deeds, and just restrain myself in anything i did. Then i found out that that wasn't my true self that i wanted to show others, it's just cause what the world expects me to do, that's why i'm doing it.. I really wanna say what the world feels about you should not be what you feel about yourself )): they may say 101 things but ultimately it's you and you yourself that truly matters.

Coincidence is such an amazing thing that leaves you wonder why at the end of it all. Went in audi for the first time in weeks. And then i thought there was no one online when i first saw the messenger, then after one game she was online..zz. It's wonderful how this world works that makes us at the end wonders what on earth have just happened... Anw, i just said how do u know i'm talking abt you? lol, then u started saying No arh? Omg=__= It's a question not a statement.. Sometimes assuming is often close to judging but i guess judge is likely more serious than assuming cos u put a sentence on a person. Just like how a judge'd convict a criminal, while assuming is only within oneself, is more like something like i thought u were etc etc..

You know i rather cry for you than knowing that you cry. Like srsly srsly. At least i'm able to do sth for a friend like you than just watching you, not knowing what i can do for you. At least helping you cry, i made you less tired, less weary of having to go through the action of crying. But come to think of it the action of crying acatually relieve oneself. It makes you released all those that u kept inside of yourself. No matter what, i feel there's a maximum capacity one can take and there's only this much i can do for a person, the rest i guess it's really up to oneself. Afterall, i can never comprehend how one feels when he/she is in a certain situation cause i will never have been the the exact same situation as him/her. Maybe i may have been once in a similar situation but never the congruent.

On a side note, i'm looking foward to K at Kbox cineleisure tmrw and buffet at sakura XD The cannot sing Hua is gonna SING TMRW!!! haha.. well, the only thing i wanna say is my life have been filled with 1001 at least i tried, well as a matter of fact, trying is better than siting there and not doing anything because it's only when u try, will then u know the result, whether does it ends u up crying or jumping for joy. Still i wanna encourage those people out there who tried to do things they've never done before. Because sometimes it really takes a lot of courage to do so.. And the person i wanna mention is the guy who's been taking 33 with me for 4 years!Haha>_< really admired your courage to pursue your dreams(:

I wanna see my rainbow after this heavy downpour in my life.
Afterall, you may be the best fish in the pond, but never the best in the ocean. May the heavy downpour carry you to the ocean. All the best in the JC that u are pursuing. A fullstop i guess.

Labels: Belief, Childish-ness, Choice, Coincidence, Courage, Feeling., Supress