A packer told me I actually looked strong on the outside but I'm easily bullied. I don't know how she figured that out within like 2 days of knowing me. I think what she said is quite true and I need to be more decisive and all and stop being weak, in a way, too agreeing to too many matters. Need to change before army starts.

I'm getting bored at work and sick of hearing too many *toot* sound and getting sick of people asking me where to buy condoms and people buying sex toys having me look at them and them staring at me. I wanted to check their ICs, but seriously can't be bothered to and it'd be too awkward. I got pissed off at work because people keep stealing my chair.

I think the only reason why I probably haven't quit is cause I had a reason to sms someone during my break and maybe the stupid agency's contract. Life is kind of boring and the only exciting thing are songs which I never hear before and people I never knew. I don't know what I'm thinking now, after all I've promised myself not to get involved before army starts but I'm totally not keeping it and I'm back to square one. I think sometimes it's my fault that things turn out this way. Say nothing would have happened if I didn't extend my contract and really, decision that affect your life are hard to make, I realise. Results' in 2 weeks time and really, it's like life changing moment all over again. Angel, be my comfort if all else fails because really, I have no sense of direction right now.

I don't know what I'm thinking, neither about you.

I think work has this numbing effect, because all you do is concentrate on what you do and nothing else really matters, even for that slight moment.

It's the 5th day and I'm going strong, 3 more days to go before I finally have an off day. Valentine's day is coming and I'm still lonely.