Saturday, September 11, 2010
Go Away.
[CL]You’re so cheap and this isn’t like you This song is so so good. I don't know why they used 3 title tracks, it's the first in music history or sth and the other two songs are relatively weirder lol. Thing is the other 2 songs are pretty much upbeat songs which I don't really like cause I think it's a bit like overdone, like everyone else is doing upbeat song, why are you conforming and not showing a unique style of music? Well, at least that's what I expect from 2NE1 and BB. It's a bit like they have their own style and no one else can really take that away from them. Besides, the song is relatively meaningful. Like someone's biggest revenge for falling out of love is to live a better life than he/she is being in love, isn't it? It tells the other person that you are actually living better off without him/her. Well, I'm not saying it's good cause you're just pretending to be living better off to spite the other person. I think I do that sometimes a bit, like screw it, who cares a crap about your face and even if you try and get as far away from me as possible, I'm not gonna care about you and your actions and just carry on living my life as it is. Well, I don't know anyone still visits here but still it's a bit like whether you're guilty or not. Like if you're guilty of something, when someone talks about it, even if it's not about you, you'll still feel that he/she is talking about it. It's a matter of mentality actually, not quite as a matter of who the speaker is actually referring to. By now I hope you realised, it's not about you. Life. Had been quite a week of messed up holidays. Screwed up outings, friendships, focus and weather. I don't quite know what to believe in anymore. As a matter of fact, I don't quite want my life to be scandalous, neither do I want it to be exciting, I just want it to be normal. I want to go through the day just like any other dude walking on the street, I want to feel things that anyone out there can feel, I want not to be bothered by other people and just be myself, do the things I want to do and live the life I want to live. But we all know that's the romanticized version of what every single person out there who has this ideal mindset think about. And come to think of it media has such a devastating change on people's lives, like well 911. It isn't cool at all when 5minutes before you're leaving the house for tuition, it starts raining till you can't see what's outside the window. Like why is the rain poking fun of me. Seriously, I don't quite hate rain but still, it's a bit like I hate to be in it or at least the feeling of it all and actually I used to love rain a lot. I realised the more I spend my time staring at pretty pictures on tumblr, the less I blog here, so yeah follow me with the same name at tumblr if you want. I've been trying to learn how to do a baby freeze, but still quite fail cause I can't find the point of balance and I think I sprained my neck a little. My stomach's been acting all weird as usual, hurting in the middle of the night and continues to do so such that I can't stand up because when I do I will ache like crap and forced to a curled up position. Oh, my sanity. I'm feeling so angsty right now and I actually just finished my angsty playlist a few days ago. Still can't believe I went to search for angsty songs on google and actually only found MCR's I'm not Okay and truly, I'm not okay. As the day ends, I live in this enclosed world of mine, filled with myself and nothing else. Forever so self-centered. |