I've come to terms with myself that yes, I'm gonna fail almost all my subjects. Well, as much as I would like to be encouraging about it all, it's just that bad. Average U for H1 econs, average S for H2 Chem? Well, this school should just go and burn and die. The feeling of waiting to die, like you know you're gonna fail but you're still somehow looking forward to it, because you kind of believe that there's a glimpse of hope until you see it with your own eyes that you have to accept the truth. I'm afraid, that I'm one of the two guys who failed GP. Argh, screw all these, I rather live not in the know and it's better off this way because I know I probably didn't make it so I'm actually making an effort to pay even more attention in class/lecture and everything. Yes! I survived first day of my timetable but failed the second because of well-.- tuition. Sigh, it's so tiring going through 2hours of the same lessons. I cannot have such long lessons if not normally I'll end up zoning out and well nothing goes in. I'm glad the room was quiet and I fell asleep until someone vaguely slammed the door.

Anyway I scammed SGC of their 2 years membership :O And they actually recorded my one and only competition in it-.-" Oh wells, the attendance ic said my attendance last year could be counted if I went another few times, but ended up I didn't even turn up. I hate this identity crisis, something I've been dealing with ever since the start of all these, like not quite belonging here or there. It's a bit like jacks of all trade but master of none. Like you contribute a bit in terms of everything but not a lot in one area and the recognition you get is like Idk doesn't quite belong anywhere. MRC doesn't quite belong anywhere too, like it's supposed to be under Service but there isn't any options that say so and yet it isn't strictly clubs and society. Ahhh, screw this seriously. Everything is so screwed up and I'm thinking of..

People. Facebook has such a bad effect on me such that whenever there's this new photo of whoever that appears, I'll just can't help but click it. And sometimes, that's when I start thinking about it all, of the past and stuff. Indeed, you look prettier now even though I don't think it's quite the word to describe, without braces. Sometimes, I wish it didn't end up like this but there's nothing I can do about it. Chalet, Yj said invite them, should we?..