I've been in this mood swing that I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. I shaft people away and I don't really know myself anymore. I've been this determined to study ever since the first minute I woke up, only to find myself drowning in this never ending escapism. The instability of my less than a year's old laptop pissed me off so much, it's as though a parallel to myself. So, I spent the whole afternoon reformatting and reintstalling everything on my comp. Should be working much faster now.. 3 more weeks to prelims, I really don't know what I'm doing with my life. I kept telling myself to study hard, it's the last lap already, but it seems the more I try, the further I get away from even doing anything. I'm still dreaming and everything about you felt so real, yet I know I've to wake up one day and the thought of everything which is gonna be gone just consumes me more and more. Tonight I saw the moon, so bright, so beautiful that it reminds me of you, then it suddenly got consumed by the darkness, not clouds or anything, just.. pure darkness. It's like your hopes just got consumed. I saw the fireworks yesterday, thanks to the constant national day rehearsal, so pretty! But it's like gone and it seems the only other place you can see it is in your dreams.

does the colour of "friends" fades beside the word "relationship"?

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