I swear the most exciting of things happen to me on the MRT, or rather, the SMRT just hates me, or I've been too stony when taking MRT rides. Today, I took the wrong side of the train from my house and ended up meeting up with WQ late T.T Seriously, I need to NOT take the wrong train/ miss my stops every now and then. My sense of awareness of my surroundings are getting worse. Soon, I'll not realize that people are beside me. I need to get out of this daze D: Stop being a wallflower and start studying T.T Back to exciting, some guy on the MRT said, "Excuse me, is this your towel?" when another girl is alighting and just so happens it's not. Talk about awkward, this is what awkward means.

"So you want to eat Subway? Or something else?"
"I'm okay with Subway."

And guess what?-.- We met Mr Yap at Subway. What a coincidence. So somehow, we talked for an hour over many stuff. It was more of like come HECG talk, I think LOL. I think what he said is quite true. Whatever you're getting yourself into, you need to try it out first, you never know whether the thing's for you until you're in it. I think it applies to a lot of things in life, it's like you never know what the future holds for you. Anyway, I still can't believe I asked about RFT and I think I said his name for the first time in ages. Why do I care so much about such a douchebag?D: Just go burn and die in hell already.

Then Mr Yap said something quite interesting, even though it was about Science. He asked if we know why we need to repeat experiments. The reason was being having two readings differing from one another by a lot, by performing another experiment, you can confirm which is the correct reading and the chances of you making the EXACT same error in the EXACT same conditions to obtain the EXACT same wrong readings are so rare that it's almost negligible. I think it applies in life too. Isn't it hard to make the same mistakes under the same conditions again? Well, if it happens, just count it as you're down on your luck or maybe you're just so stupid that it happens again. Now, now I think I might be feeling stupid now. Somehow, I always bump into him when I'm at JP. I remembered the last time we stood and talked about PW for about 20minutes or something.

You know that feeling you get when you’re on a roller coaster for the first time? Or you’re going too high on a swing? Or you hit some certain bumps on the road and your stomach kinda flips? That’s the way I feel when I’m around you. Not all the time, but there’s those times when you look at me; and I can’t even explain it - but that’s what I feel.

This is what happens when I keep reading tumblr; keep thinking. I think my heart drops when I get to the peak of something. It's like your heart is in your mouth and then drops down again. It gets scary when it happens over and over again?

I'm at war with my own heart.

How could I? When her heart clearly knows who she wants to be with?

I think I never quite believed in myself, always uncertain about things and never quite inspired anyone.