See, this is exactly what I’m talking about: when I need you, you’re not there. When you need me, I’m always there in a blink. And you call yourself a good friend? Think again.

Isn't that what every teenager goes through? Crushes, betrayal, emotional train wrecks and all. Why should I even get work up for? It's just part of growing up.

A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities.
William Arthur Ward

I like this quote because I think I'm still in the process of trying to learn how to be a true friend.

Midyears are finally over. Albeit it's only 3 papers, but it kind of made my life turn upside down. It's just midyears, why so stress? Maybe it's cause there are expectations to be met and this time there are no excuses to be made, enough time to study, no distractions at hand.

Not to mention sighs of relief when Chem's finally over especially when you have to wake up at 4am to finish studying whatever you've missed out and almost going crazy on msn talking about saturated minds and how it would no accept any more H and how FRS won't take place cause it's already night. I need to have some proper sense of exam consciousness because my carelessness is drowning me, ultimately going to kill me one day.

Then again, I'm feeling increasingly tired. I spent my post exams not going out and editing the VERY unorganized MRC test paper and the 101 redundant questions that are being asked over and over again, not to mention a warped sense of mark allocation. We should just openly declare that there's going to be a test and watch them panic. I swear EkaT's sadist aura is evidently growing on me, which reminds me he set a whole shit load of Lit homework for this June holiday, -gasp-.

I'm quite used to this solitude already, even if it means the whole world has somebody to go out with and I'm all alone, I think I got used to it already. Sometimes, you've been constantly feeling sad, and then as time goes by, you don't know how sad feels like anymore. Some people call it numbed, I call it losing touch of reality. I've been listening to Cry by Jay Sean, realising I haven't cried for ages suddenly, I don't know how to anymore. Well, it's suppose to be good right, but somehow it doesn't know how it feels to be sad anymore. Then again, I have a whole list of I-want-to but cannot-do things that have been accumulated over the course of the exam and sick period. Like I wanted to eat ice cream and I can't because I was sick. When I finally recovered, it was during the exam period and I can't eat too. I wanted to read Bokura ga Ita but I've to study for exam, sigh. Now that I finally found the time, I'm constantly bogged down by things.