Nights have became increasingly hard, because the moon appears to be sadder and sadder every night with clouds overflowing, the sun not shining on it, the colour darkens, the light fades, everything else just doesn't seem right.

Sleeping has been difficult too. Every night, the volume of thoughts increased faster and faster, it's like the multiplier effect taking it's toll on me, only instead of increasing national income, it's increasing the amount of emotions. Thoughts, theories don't seem to apply anymore, it's like come back to reality and everything that are affecting you are part of the reality you have to wake up to and face.

Argh, why is my life so screwed up?

Last night, I hugged my bear so tightly and I was tossing and turning on my bed. It's as though the fear of losing things that are important to me visited me once again. One step forward, three steps back.

I don't know what made sense to me anymore.

This morning I woke up to a splitting headache, maybe cause my brain screamed too much in the middle of the silent night, my poor brain, it's exhausted and I have a fucking econs test on Tues, coupled with a Chem test on Wed, Napfa on Fri. I'll be a survivor if I survive past the next week without collapsing.

Labels: Night