I think stars are this awesome light that have different symbolic meanings for different people. And sometimes, I do enjoy staring out in the vast sky, just well, looking at stars. But I'm afraid as time goes by, the time I spent looking out of my window gets lesser, partly due to the busy schedule that I have. I think I missed the times when I was a child, when I just sit and stare at things, wishing that I'd grow up, but I guess it's now the reverse. And it's kind of weird that things always go against your wishes, be it in anything that you do.

I look out to the sky tonight, hoping that I would see stars. I thought I saw one, but it disappears faster than I could properly catch a glimpse of it. The sky became clear, but I started to miss the sight of that fading star. Then I thought to myself, aren't stars all the same? But in the end realizes that that fading star is different, because it leaves me missing that sight, missing every shine.

I think stars for me can stand for humans. Because they sometimes appear to guide you in your path, giving you hope, giving you strength and makes you wish for something more that would happen. But sometimes, they are disappointing, because they don't appear when you wanted them to and they just fade away when you really needed them to guide you.

I've been emoing for the whole day. Partly because I don't know what to do with my life. I mean there were times when I had a guide and knows where exactly I'm heading, certain sources of motivation. But those were things of the past. I guess I just need to find certain stuff to keep me going. And I think I have weird mentality, for a guy.

Sometimes, I get upset over what people say. Honestly, I have no idea why. I should maybe just give up trying to figure out something about life, about people, about many many other things. Like honestly, I don't want to keep fighting for something I know that wouldn't happen.

And honestly, I'm not that depressed over my results, because well they were kind of within expectations, or at least I can safely say that for now. I mean if inadequate effort is being put in, you should expect a grade deserving of what you put in.

GP fries my brain and Sci & Tech is just as depressing.

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