Funorama was ok.

I think it was a good balance between work and fun, at least for me. Half the time was spent running up staircases trying to figure out what's wrong with the sound and the other half spent picking up the broken pieces, literally. All but one glass cups broke, though I think if it were to be mirrors, I'd be in eternal bad luck or something along those lines. I think people needs to be careful with live wires because over the course of the 2 days, I saw sparks flying across at least 3 times and almost get themselves killed. I'm so annoyed at my classmates sometimes because they leave me with no choice except to take double shift. I mean what can you do with just 2 people at a 2-lane sliding mug game? I think I'm like some delocalised electron floating around because I think I don't seem to fit anywhere.

I'm so annoyed angry at certain individuals. But it's well and over, just get over it and live my life already.

Why did you spend $50 on a Coca Cola shirt?!?

I still can't believe how i got scammed into buyingbought a rather plain shirt that actually cost $50. But, I wouldn't have managed to have time to spend on other stuff anyway.

Dinner with j1-j4 was epic, partly because the only j1 has been clueless about whatever that we're talking about. And how Kangde's continual confession that his a president that does nothing because everything else is being done by his comm. And I think what we have today is because of people who advocated changes to the system. Great changes.

I spent the whole of Sunday sleeping once again.

Chapel was kind of crazy even though I think we managed it somehow. I'm kind of glad that someone didn't come in and insist on the importance of healthy signal level. After which, we spent some time reflecting upon FOR, which I've come to realise that I've been rather distant from my class throughout the whole thing. I think my class bonded a lot. They say FOR either makes or breaks your class. I'm glad it's the first and not the latter.

After which the MRC OT crew went for PL lunch and -cough- discussion about j1s. Daiso shopping, 15cm head length and 'Even if the world ends tmrw, I'll save a coin' Piggy bank (Y). Honestly, I don't know why people are so interested in my personal life but that person should stop stalking me already. Went to watch How to Train a Dragon 2D with sec school friends. Dinner at JustAsia which I spent more than half the time quiet and thinking.

I don't think parents ever will forsake their child unless they are forced to. Which comes to the point that I realised it's very sad when parents does that, or at least in our modern society, the lack of concern at least from a child's perspective is evident. It's because of the way we lead our lives that causes us to be so packed that we often forget the things that are most important to us. Maybe children don't understand parents because they just lived in their own life, not knowing what the world out there is like and how an adult actually works. And I think it's time I grow up.

I woke up today with a very bad stomachache. Being tensed up for the whole day, not realising that I've got to find a way on how to relax myself. Sitting outside the cage and just thinking about stuff that's not MR related during morning assembly is like such a luxury sometimes just makes you try and imagine how life without responsibilities would be like. Despite being depressed for whole 3 days already, I think Lit lessons never fail to show me another perspective of life and cheers me up. Like how today EkaT was mentioning about how 2 poems tries to portray 2 same subject matter differently like how Death might not necessarily be sad.

So does that mean that the stuff I sometimes think of does not necessarily ends up sadly. Like how 2 people that doesn't necessarily matches one another and still didn't get together in the end. Does that mean it will definitely be sad? Or it's the process of learning from the whole process of loving one another that actually matters? Honestly, I don't know who or what actually matters in my life anymore. And I don't know how I am supposed to feel about someone and the endless possibility of how it might just end sadly. Contradicting feelings, two very different worlds. How is that ever possible? How things end and people portray it positively. I think only people like EkaT can actually do it. Which brings me to the point that I adopt much extremist views and superficial thinking that I should actually start looking between the lines and figure out a solution to all these and stop being loveless.


I think butterflies are hard to come by, that's why people make a made-believe image of it. So what actually is reality to me? I don't know because I'm really lost.

Loveless - Yamapi

Somehow I understand now
The reason why you stop and look down
Is all because you can’t begin to talk about ‘breaking up’
Our shadow fell on the pavement
Are overlappd on top of each other
Our memories are growing further apart

You must have met a new love
Can’t find the words to keep you here beside me

Why the goodbye
Why the ending
But even if these were lies
Our hands that we have let go are getting colder
We’ll become strangers
Why the apologies, please don't cry
Because I might hug you again
As memories piled up
Before they turn into painful memories
Here is the final smile, let us say goodbye...

"I’ll be fine by myself"
was the first lie I told
In hope it will stop your tears
You were really important to me, I didn't want to let go
I dont want to say it exactly
Emotions with nowhere to go fill my heart
But because I’m wishing for your happiness more than anyone
Even though I pretend to be strong, but I want to tell you “thanks”

Even goodbye
Even regrets
They are proof that we had met
It's because it is you that I think this way
You are an irreplaceable existence in my life

So as not to forget them, I’ll etch the seasons we shared together into my heart
As I watch you go hurrying off to a new future, behind your back
With a final smile, I say goodbye…

Why the goodbye
Why the ending
But even if these were lies
Our hands that we have let go are getting colder
We’ll become strangers
Why the apologies, please don't cry
Because I might hug you again
As memories piled up
Before they turn into painful memories
Here is the final smile, let us say goodbye...

I really like this song somehow. It's like it gives this love-hate kind of feeling. And the tune is kind of calming, soothing. It's offically my alarm and ringtone! Honestly, I think it's awesome to wake up to something that's like soothing and slowly gets you moving.

Labels: Loveless