Camp was tiring and made me wonder about a lot of things. First was an epic fail at first attempt in my life at trying to climb over a gate. Fell with a wound. And it made me think why the hell do I keep trying to climb over (do something) when i keep falling (failing) at. And in the end only ending up with myself in a pile of wounds (hurt) all over myself. And then was the sound course, many times felt like dozzing off since most of the theories were being taught by our seniors. Honestly, someone should stop aiming at me and making things difficult for me. Just by repeating the same stuff over and over again doesn't help hur.

Well at night was the I couldn't stand looking at what was going on and how much i would be of a "ruin the mood" person i would be if I were to remain there. After all, i couldn't bear to see what I'm looking at anyway. Angry? Maybe? Pissed? Maybe? I don't know. After all, who am I to well even tell you to do anything. Well, not like anyone realised. So I went to the bleachers to have some time just looking out at the stars and wondering how little I could do as a mere me. And then staring out at this.

Like it was never before. Because the colourful lights were gone. Like now, everything's gone...

I don't know what the hell I was thinking trying to sit there alone. But well, the night somehow got thru with insomnia kicking in and draining thoughts going thru my mind.

Fun-o-rama set up was okay. With the same old thing, can't bear to see what i'm looking at again.. And not like I can do anything. And i don't know what the hell I was thinking running around the track when I was half dead. Yeah whatever, not like I matter in your life anymore. Well, are there anything worse than death? If you don't even fear death, then what else do you have to fear? Losing something that was never yours to begin with?

That was the two days at camp, wishing I weren't there.

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Camp apart. Wednesday was spent pooling at K-Pool. Failing at trying to score the black ball in twice WJ. You rocked ;x And we should totally played by the number of games instead of going by like hours. And he poked me in the eye with the cue stick.. I almost turned blind hur? The chalk or whatever didn't get into my eyes hur I hope.. Double dose of Macs was definitely unhealthy and we should never do it again. Maybe try Subway, healthier choice, but still, double chocolate cookies, fattening eh.

We saw this Lego thing at ION. It was supposed to be a consolidated effort for fundraising. Every Lego block is $2. So that's the amount actually.



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Thrusday was spent Munchkin-ing at Kwee's house. And failed five-people bridge along with Asshole Taidi. Seriously neutral ftw. And looks like being the most peaceful guy on earth for Munchkin does help eh, right Wq ;x And we're epic failed at listening out for the rain because we mistook the waterfall as the rain. So ended up staying longer than we expected. After that was dinner at broadway. We should do this again.

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Friday, Wj and Wq came over to my house. Lunch at Redhill market was filled with indecisive "what to eat". So we ended up feasting on much more than what we supposedly think we could have finish. They were the first to step into my house I think? Amongst my friends I guess.. We played Monopoly, Chinese Chess, 3 people Bridge and super Wj-sabotaged Munchkin. Showed them rakion and got Wq to play also. Hmm, yes I know my bed is comfortable. Looking forward to the next time we could meet up. After all, normal school days meant busy schedule and then we gonna be occupied by all the stuff in the world to even bother about each other maybe?

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Sat was spent shopping for Seniors' Night stuff. No, I'm not J2, no, I'm not having my prom. But doing the technical stuff. Set up's gonna be crazy i swear. With just 5+1 people, oh well if Mohd's helping.. Anyway, we never knew how to use the Snake, do we? Well, I guess it's gonna be a fun time exploring huh. Anyway, I looked rather weird in formal clothings, probably because I never wore any in my entire life.. Or maybe I actually did, but I couldn't remember. I guess I'll post a picture or something when I wear it..

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Sun. Went out to eat Swensens@IONS. The one with ice cream buffet. Concluded that unless there's a promotion, it's not worth eating there.. I mean how much ice cream can you eat in that matter of hours.

But really like trying to decorate your own ice cream hmm.


Pretty?Isn't it? Say yes please :x Nah just joking..

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