Today had SC's investiture. Wasn't doing much except for the fact of becoming the MRC backstage ghost. The kind that just lurks and doesn't say anything at all or rather do anything much. I think i scared my GP teacher.-__-" Macs for dinner. Thanks Yi Wei. I feel damn bad to make him treat us again though, maybe i should just pay him.

I screwed up the interview anyway (and prob got insulted too). "It's a simple question." and i said i can't answer it. I'm not used to selling myself. I think i disappoionted myself when i kept telling myself i'd do better and fail each time i try harder. But more importantly i think i disappointed someone even more. That bothered me more than i bothered about myself.

It's hard to put on a smile when you jolly well know you can't. What's more in front of someone you didn't wanna upset. I choose to isolate myself. I'm tired, from trying to act like nothing has happened when i knew that i was just deceiving myself the more i try. For hours, that retarded self of mine have been covering my feelings, and i think it needs a rest. I realised it's hard to look into the eyes of someone. My courage just diminishes as i tried. That's when i realised i really liked.

Too many things just took place today for the 2nd half of the day. Some mentioned above, some not. But it's too much for me to take. i'm disappointed in someone close to me, a close friend. The disappointment tonight is just too much to take.

This was my windows to the world today.

It's your smiles that brings me hope.

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