Sometimes, i just don't want to explain myself. When my father actually scolded me at 1am when i didn't sleep, i just kept quiet and continue studying. Because i knew what i was doing was right, i wasn't well prepared enough for my exams yet, not that. More like NOT. It's not like i want to stay up late for the sake of staying up late. If i could i would choose to sleep at 10pm everyday, but life has made is such that it's quite impossible to do so. So i thought if i were to fail, at least know i tried my best in the last lap to at least salvage the situation. No one understands that, but still i gotta move on, doing what i feel is right for me to do. Even though i may be criticised by a million and one people.

If i could survive past this, i'd pretty much surprised because all i know is i haven't been understanding things for as long as i could remember. Memorising things isn't working for this SSTM person here. I guess practising is my only hope.

Happiness, sadness, tears, sky, stars and my heaven, i'm working towards it. This line brings back a lot of images, memories, things that may once matter to me a lot a lot, even though it may be very well just 9 words, but it speaks a lot to me. Just too much to describe with just words.

It hurts to cry, it hurts even more to know someone else is crying and yet you can't do anything about it. But after all, it's through tears that you see the myriads of colors. So let it all out and move on (:

Back to studying.

Kimi dake nanka sukoshi chigau
Unmei kanjiteta noni

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