Cause your happiness once meant everything to me.

anw, glad that u enjoying your life now and happy with your school + cca :) guess you didn't make the wrong choice after all. all the best and stay happy! ^^

I realised this is an outdated draft that was autosaved apparently. I guess you're off to wherever you truly belonged. But don't think that i'm happy. Cause that's not the case. My life is too busy to even stop and think whether it's worth living. My school isn't the best of place for me to fit in but i'm trying hard, so much so that i've been so tired everyday, just trying to fit in sometimes. And my cca is i guess the one that gave me the numb feeling to everything. If i were to say i was just lucky to have met the right people, if not all these were all wrong choices. I was lucky I walked out alive of 'O's. I was lucky I didn't kill myself. I was lucky... It all just so happen this way and yet it kept me alive till now.

Anyway, i doubt you'd visit this place again. I guess i could just say my piece. I hope after all that it seemed, the image of me being happy will always remain in you. So you'll never feel guilty for what has happened. "all the best and stay happy", i know it comes from your heart, i'll just accept your well wishing and move on, perhaps forgetting you like how i just got a brain concussion. I hope you don't blame me for all these, because i hope you'll be a happier person without me. It's always been my fault all these while and i truly apologise. If perhaps, my existence was to be ceased, i guess you probably won't have gone through so much struggles. So much so many things happened. I'm in no position to say much though i really felt so angsty whenever i thought about the past between you and i. But there are sweet times, times when I truly enjoyed and times when i felt unrequited true love.

Now, i just wanna find someone who could perhaps be that special someone that you once were in my heart, who could give me that renewed special feeling, so that i can put all my efforts into a new relationship, so much so that the past no longer matters to me anymore. Once again, i hope you'll never blame me. Cause i once really loved you.

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