On 31st December 2008, evening i met Chloe((((; Lol, it was at a ulu place;xxx Yeah, redhill hawker lol. Normally i don't go there to eat for dinner, but yesterday was an exception ;x Yeah, so i saw her and thought it wasn't her cause i didn't even meet her in realife before. Only seen the photos, so yeah. It was hilarious :D Cause i wasn't sure so i sms-ed her. Then, when i saw her taking out the phone i was like... Don't tell me it was really her=__= Then she started looking around ;xxx But by then i was going off haha:D So yeah, on the last day of 2008, i saw Chloe,a.k.a Siying. A unique yet strange encounter. Was it conincidence or fate at work? Though i can't even comprehend these 2 words.

Hmm, well it's new year 2009. The number doesn't look pleasing to my eye. Somehow or rather,2009 JUST DOESN'T LOOKS NICE, not like 2008/2007, well, many bad things happen during those "nice years", so let's just hope it's the opposite for 2009(: School will be starting real soon in 1 month's time.. I don't know whether i should be happy or what but well, it seems almost definite i must get in a jc, even if it means one in which doesn't really fits me. yeah lurh, my mum sent me the JC1 calender=___= When i dun even know whether i'm even going there. I should seriously think over it for the next 10 days or so. But most of the time when i thought over it, i came to one conclusion-aiya decide when results are out=___= Maybe it's a way to make me feel better, just escaping from the responsibilty. Perhaps sometimes, choice is such a double edged sword, it allows u to choose but yet at the same time it makes you troubled, cause there are too many choices out there. Yeah lurh, isn't it better to have no choice at times? Something to ponder over.

Back to the calender thing, yeah, i saw the calender for studies for JC1. It's freaking slack larh, much more than pri/sec school ones=__= Every term we only study 2 out of 3 months of the whole thing lurh, only at the last term it's 2 1/2 month or so + public holidays inbetween + sat/sun breaks, it's like wow>_> But this brings us back to reality, it also meant we have little time to prepare for the As. Again benefits and harms us at the same time. Anw, this doesn't mean i'm going to jc definitely=__= On a side note, my father has ben talking me into going jc, and he goes beating around the bush and i knew what's the main thing he wanna address in like first 2 minutes of what he said=__=

During the midnight "little party" for New year, we ordered Macs=____= Great, i've been eating dunno how much during the entire holidays.. and when i weighed myself today i gained 2kg lolx. Never mind, when school starts stress will just engulf and injest me;x (Note: phagocytosis, if u get what i mean). So yeah, watched the fireworks LIVE as in out of my windows lurh, and i was like disenchanted in it.. Maybe it's because of the fact that i get to see something like this every now and then. It's really bad, i'm not treasuring it while it's still there )): I guess that's human's nature.

Talking about human nature, i'm really disappointed in humans still, especially guys. Sleazy ones>_> I might become one of them sooner or later. It's like i can't stop myself from meeting a guy's needs=__= If u get what i mean, if u don't stop thinking too farfetched. Yeah, i really wanna love her with a pure me D: But however, somehow i felt stained. Because of that, i always feel i'm not worthy of her ): So i held back whenever i see her. Perhaps, purity is what i seek and white represents it the best, so it's my fav colour (:

So it's new year and i guess everyone's like thinking of their new year resolution. Resolution.. Hmm, I saw this on someone's post-這一年,我哭過,笑過, 開心過, 失望過,只求新的一年更加美好,我就滿足了=] Such a simple yet hard to fulfill resolution. I guess i'm hoping for the same thing, a better year ahead...

Labels: Chloe, Choice, Coincidence, Fate