Orh wells, i guessed i took too long to organise my thoughts to revive this blog. Wait wait.

*Does revival ritual*

Ok, i think this blog is back alive again.
P.S It was killed by someone, not me, not long ago cause i still can remember..

I guess i'm a paranoid individual aren't I? Looking into every single nitty bit of details huh, if only i could just heck almost every other thing.. o.o Orh well, i think it's a double-edged sword, like it depends on how you used it. Let's take perserverance for example. If used in a positive way, then perhaps it's determination, and use it in a negative way, then i guess u have to call it stubborn. Overused meticulous=paranoid. So i guess you can figure out more of these erm positive-negative adjectives i guess? So like back to Pri school-adjectives..== Yes talking about primary school, just telling zy, emo your tao larh, i just wondering lurh, you know i always dreammmmmmmmmmmmmmm, sometimes dream the impossible, sometimes dream the unnecessary, sometimes dream about the possibilities. Orh well, i'm such a wallflower, no wonder my name included a Hua in it.. Yeah, then I found out there are still many people whom like are still contactable like cliva who just tagged at my blog >_< haha, somehow everyone noticed your absence. Perhaps, you are too stressed up haha, need a break so went overseas XD

Guess i'm gonna change my blogskin soon. Depends on my mood. My mood is like a variable resistor throughout the day muahaha, phy >.<" Somehow, I never fail to think about such stuff, making connections between reallife and subjects that i studied. Perhaps, they really are acting in my life. Been reading up on psychology books, and i don't understand the scientific part at all, but the only thing i realised in that book that i dun understand a thing is that psychology is so much like proving+ a bit of assumptions. Aww, assumptions give me the creeps, caused i think i assumed too much in the past. I assumed that everything i gave i will receive something in return. Then i realised how cruel this world is to me. Yeah.. Like now, i'm looking for a dam job and there isn't one-.- ( at least one that's suitable larh.. Ask me go do sales, ppl see my face wa peng this guy so many pimples==). Orh yes this made me remember somehow that i haven't finish my post on last day of school, but but but the feeling's no longer there, how am i gonna figure out what's the chain of thoughts that i've went through on that day?.. Guess i will try.

Alright back to some realife stuff. The past week, 2 ppl whom i knew went for operation... o.o One's my cuz, the other's Chloe. My cuz one's a sudden one, like some old ailment act on her again. Didn't want to go into details but yeah really hope she recovers from it once and for all cause she's went for the operation twice.

Next, Chloe! lol. It was such a joke larh.. Cause it's a minor op, so she's conscious and she didn't tell anyone that she needs something to distract her during the op. Then then, like at the last min really last min, then she sms me Anyone's who free plz entertain me, i'm abt to undergo an op or sth along that line. At that time i was like busy. Real busy larhzz talking to my aunt, trying to figure out what's wrong with my cuz's comp. Yeah then then she spammed me with sms, yeah i told her she cld. Then i had some difficulty juggling between conversations. Wait i'm thinking of the focus of everything-.- Arh yes, i didn't know what to say to her, cos i HAVE NEVER sms anyone when the person's in op, normally the person would be like in deep sleep and not SMS-ing. Yeah anyway, you braved through it, brave girl XD Cause i think it was really scary? Laser against your hand.It's like OMFG-.- And you are actually aware of it. I doubt i might be able to face it and say "OK FINE JUST BRING IT ON LASER NIA"... lolx. So, Chloe take care too and rest well, stop with your midnight dramas like now i think-.- i saw her online lolx. And and remember Hua's slow, Hua's not to be counted on, so you shld always find a faster backup haha. Yes, a lesson learnt : Backups are important.

Erm then nothing much happened after that. I've been slacking at home for as long as i could remember. Actually i don't mind it but it's just so boring. Cause it's like during the Os, you are like ok exams faster over over OVER! YES exam's over, then isn't holidays what you've been looking foward to? Like now, but instead of feeling so, I feel so it's better to keep onself occupied. So Anyone whose got a job suitable for me, please recommend me okays..

Talking about jobs, i remembered i saw classmates at SITEX IT fair haha.>_> Or rather schoolmates. It was really hilarious when you see them it's like dam awkward cause it's like what is this. I'm the customer, you are the person serving me? When we always have been in the same classroom, been on equal levels. Not like customers always first those kind of thing. So yeah, to tell this person whom i saw there, AI ZAI okay?lolx. Even see anyone familiar also dun shake ;o Yeah it's part of your job dun tio shock haha.

Since yesterday, i've been addicted to the song Here I Am by Paul Twohills. His like a local artists but i guess not that well known as Boys Like Girls, Click Five etc etc. Yeah i really enjoyed this song lurh. I can't explain why, but maybe it calms the soul? Makes life simple and easy. And the way he sings it is like very unique hmm. It's a nice song overall. 9.5/10! 0.5 room for improvement :D Uploading it tmrw i guess cause it's kinda of late now.

Today, whee the whole family went to Equinox o.o It's like breathtaking view there larh. 70th floor woot, it's like seeing things from a different point of view, in this case point of view refers to the 70th floor. If only i'm working there so i can watch the whole scenery, of cause not as a life time job i would consider it as, but a temp job now since i'm like nothing better to do. And Yeah i did something interesting with the food there :o Picture tmrw :P Sth to keep you in suspense heh.



Yeah, today my sis was playing audi and stuff happened. Guess i can't forget about you after all. When i know that something happened to you, i can't held it but really want to care for you. Instead, i realised i'm such a fool, cause you won't need me at all, cause it's already impossible, cause... I'm paranoid in your eyes. yeah shyt this, i'm so not over all these like Chloe had said. lalala, here i am standing standing close to you... Dreams, how shld i define mine. Dreams-nothing but imaginary thoughts and sometimes feelings involved into it. Even so, i still held on to the possibility of dreams=reality cause that's what's been happening over the past years.

兔子和乌龟赛跑,乌龟就算是永远的在奔跑着,怎么样也是追不到兔子的......
我想这个形容应该很适合我们吧!
如果你是兔子, 我是乌龟, 我想就算我用三辈子,我也追不到你吧...
因为我想你和我奔跑的速度真的真的有很大的差别了吧...
最后,我要说的是:"虽然乌龟是永远都追不到兔子,但是要告诉你的是乌龟还是很喜欢很喜欢兔子的...D:"
希望有一天能追上你,看见兔子的背影,我想我就心满意足了...

Labels: Chloe, Holidays, Operation, Paranoid, Psychology