3rd October, the last day in Fairfield Methodist Secondary School (FMSS).. After this it's all up to us, whether we make it or break it, it's really up to us to decide, because our study leave is gonna start next Monday all the way to 2 weeks later when finally our first paper- Chem starts.

4 years... Everyone's talking about their own 4 years in their own blogs. If I say i ain't sad at all about leaving Fairfield at all, i must be lying. Still i have my own 4 years to talk about. The feeling that dawned upon me was like totally the same as what i experienced when i received my PSLE cert, the feeling that i had to deal with parting everything that i had always taken for granted for, leaving behind my crush, leaving behind what i thought had belonged to me but realised later on, it does not.

Sec 1:
Frankily, Sec 1 was like a breeze for me. Everything just went past like as if any mundane school like would be. I still remember vividly the first day i stepped into this school which i'm a total foreign to.. I even fell sick every other week. What's worst even the orientation week when we are supposed to take it easy. I kept telling myself perhaps it just takes time to adapt to the environment. The christian environment. It's like a fly suddenly touched water and got drowned. Other than that i had great teachers,whom inspired me in various subjects whether is it subjects that i later took on like Maths or subjects that i didn't continue to take on-Home Econs, D&T. I missed Mr Lim's ghost story and all ;x It never failed to make us look foward to the next Maths lessons.. And overall, his a very reasonable teacher. As in he wouldn't really scold you unless you did something really wrong. Erm, why am i focusing on him all of a sudden?o.o He used to call me a rock in CCA meetings, well, now i'm gonna prove to him i'm not!;x I guess i could only end off with one conclusion during that year, that i don't belong to Fairfield. I belong to a neighbourhood school, one that's chinese speaking perhaps.
P.S i was 1 mark away into Nanhua Sec, with a score of 242 and i put that as my first choice, so i was kinda of disappointed when i received the results of my posting back. Then i was thinking whether to appeal or not, ends up i decided not to make it so much of a hassle. Perhaps, it's fated i have to go through what's planned for me ahead.

Sec 2:
Frankily it's one of my best years in Fairfield. Things turn for a change. Partly, because i met her,my life's no longer dull, whee(: Besides, Sec 2 was a year with much project and stuff, so we had much fun trying to do them, projects are fun, a good way to destress when everything just turned out not right, especially academically. But overall, it's a balanced year with myself growing in all aspects. I could still remember the CACTUS camp we had.. Lawl, urhm, i wore my long pants too low and ended up it split when i erm sort of like overexert, but no one saw it haha ;x And i only told Bryan about it, so he lent me a pair of jeans, haha thanks Bryan ;x And it's the toughest year for my CCA because i had a not so good team for the Main competition-NJRC and my robot kept falling off from like 1 metres of high and got smashed into pieces. Those were the days i bit my teeth and told myself, it's okay, you just have to piece it back and it will work again.. It fell for like a total of 10-20 over times on just a single day, by the end of it, i told myself, never mind tomorrow will be a better day... Those were the days. A year i would want to go back to in time if i had a chance to. Though i know it's impossible to do so.

Sec 3:
It was tough and i could say it's an average year. Imagine the subject once called Science had differentiated themselves into 3 wide types-Physics, Biology, Chemistry. I had a great struggle with A.Maths too, with a teacher that never fails to go directly and precisely into the point. I was being thrown into the sea from a pool. Given the responsibility of "Sectional Leader". This title may sound nice, but behind it just lies some of the worst situation one can be caught in, friends and business. At certain crossroads, you just have to choose one, one out of the two, it's as though i'm always sandwiched in between. It's also been tough on the days when we had to do rigorous exercises and yet after that trying to stay awake for the subsequent 3 sciences, yet dragging our feet with 3 big stack of books. Well, it isn't easy at all.OBS!! Didn't really like it but still i made thru it, many things i thought i can't do, but in the end, i managed somehow. It made me want to believe in things even more, whether is it friends or simply things.

Sec 4:
I have to say, this was the worst year in my life<-- notice it's not school. This year had been a roller coaster for me. Life has it's ups and downs, is just that the period gets shorter this year. Mostly had to do with my relationship with her, or rather with a stranger that i thought was a close friend. Then the last day of my CCA and they gave me such a "wonderful" surprise, that i couldn't leave them alone. ( look at my first post). Until a certain point, i decided to start a blog, somewhere to vent my frustrations, somewhere to throw my feelings into, somewhere to remember what has always happen in my life. Perhaps, whatever i wrote here will serve as an important memory for my last part of journey in Fairfield. Orh wells, then the media camp followed by service learning. Just when i thought life would turn for a change, people around me got to screw it up for me.. All the teasing, all the nasty things they said. Then we weren't even friends and here i am with my life came crashing down, i'm so lonely,lonely... That song ;x Lonely-Akon.

Hmm, you must be wondering why haven't i say anything about my friends?;x Yeah yeah be patient, now i'm gonna talk about them.
Actually i really don't know what to say about them -.- Friends are perhaps an integral part of life, if they are absent, perhaps, we would be much more lonely, no one to share our joy, sorrows and laughter. Yeah, perhaps i will put up the photos o.o with what i want to say to them :P Orh yeah, anyone wants their photos removed, please say so on my tagboard okay? I want to respect your privacy ;x


Robert. Erm, well classmate for 4 years. Didn't really get to know him until this year though, cause cause i'm anti-social!!!!;x Nah, it's just nothing common that brings us together until this year's Service Learning. Apart from that i just want to say, i hope he is fine after he told me about his distress, definitely hope it won't stop you from getting your straight As haha;x


Matthew. Another stranger whom i didn't know of until we got to know more of each other through competitions when we have to share information (insider infor :O). Yeah perhaps that Taiwan trip brought us closer o.o Those memories, i will never forget (esp you know what you've done there ).. Then after that trip you went on disturbing me non-stop. Orh wells, you will leave me a deep impression, as in literally, because he keeps POKING ME!!! lol. Orh great apart from that, his a guy whom i can find help whenever i need in terms of academic, so yeah, thanks a lot for that(:


Daniel. Orh great, now that i keep talking about them, i realised that i didn't know many people until this year.. Yeah his randomness never fails to brighten up the atmosphere around us :D How did he do that? Well that's a mystery, but the word boredom seems to be invisible in the dictionary when you are with him ;x And yeah, no more volleyball next time, haha ;x


In the middle-Porky(LOL name given by someone;x). Whee, someone who stayed by me in times of trouble in times of need, in times where i felt alone and nonetheless helpless. But all these i guess it's way before he started playing dota. When he started off playing dota, he ignored me like crap== Sigh i don't know how to explain to you that you can't achieve anything by playing games so that you will stop. But anyway, thanks for the times when i'm really really helpless, when i have no one to look to and you were there. A loyal friend indeed (: A side note- be careful when you walk down the stairs next time hor! i might not be there anymore, hohoho ;x And all the teasing, i didn't meant it on purpose okay?;x it was meant to spike you so that you would urhmm build your body ;x

On the right-Samuel. Someone who shared many of the same perspective ;x At that very moment, i felt, wow, there's finally someone who could understand how i've felt all along. It was him (: besides, there are times we have fun conversations isn't it?;x Those memories,haha.


Matthew got owned despite owning us academically==

Joshua. The only thing i remember was the Lit Proj during Sec 1! LOL!;x

Most left-Wen Qiang (wq). Whee, someone to look for when i got things that i need to erm let out and yet no one could very well keep that underwrap. Someone that i look foward to talking to whenever i on my comp..>< Perhaps, it's because of the fact that we talk so much online that we seldom talk in reallife, or perhaps it's just that i didn't really know him well enough. Besides, we should not judge people based on what it appears to be, because in the end time will reveal everything.. Hmm what else? Those times that we just rofl lmao owned porky and some random people, yeah i wonder will we have the same chance next time when we finally leave this school. And thsoe funny stuff we dug out from youtube and all lol, i could laugh at them when i relooked at them :D Keep in contact yeah, at least on msn.;x


Kah Wee. Hmm, been a great science pratical partner over the for as long as i remember(: The times we anyhow do some practicals, the times we heck care about certain stuff, the times we blur blur dunno what the teachers are talking, the times we just gave up and starts sleeping in lessons and the times we rant about the day to one another, i miss those days, though i never want to do another sci practical, hopefully i dun have to, but it seems inevitable...


Porky knows that he can't jump for nuts he still go jump== sigh..><


Guang Rong. Frankily, didn't really like him, i don't know why but nvm larh i guess it's cause we from the same pri sch aft all and kept comparing with each other for the TOP maths during pri sch. Now that i come to think of it, it's like so childish== Sigh the Pri sch days..


Kevin. Hmm, don't worry, you will know what to do when the time comes, you just need courage :D So yeah, good luck on that.


Barnabas. One sentence to describe. You got me going during the Service Learning haha. Your enthusiasm showed me the kind of passion that we should have for whatever we are doing, whether is it for ourselves or others...


Bryan. Yeah, i guess i need not say anything anymore. It's all up there ;x


Jim. Uther's Partaye :D


4E boys with Mr Ganesan.


Recess gang.:D Not exactly gang but kinda of like everytime sit tgt kind ;x Yeah sometimes i'm alone T.T Yeah, all those gossips ;x all those tips that fly around before tests :O



=to be continued=