Ok, let's first say Happy Teachers' Day to all the teachers.

Woke up early in the morning ( Actually not early cos like 9.30 already, but compared with like 12pm those kind yeah=__=) Supose to wait for some delivery man to come deliver sth.. So i did some maths like less than half the paper 1. So meanwhile i sms-ed her and i copied sth from my pri sch gang :O Here it goes..

Me: You are (sinx)^2,I'm (cosx)^2, you know why?(:
Her: y?
Me: Cos tgt we make one(:
Her: ..lol...
Me: My love for you is just like e^x, you know why?(:
Her: y?
Me: Cos no matter how many times we differentiate,it will still be the same=X
Her: lol dun EVER be so sure.(she didn't caps)

Then i told her i'm not sure abt the future cos i dunno what's gonna happen in the future but at least nw i cld be... Then i aked her out, urh and then got rejected sigh=__= And then she says she's busy... Then i asked dun tell me 24/7 all busy... Then she start giving me reasons... I mean at first you say you are busy then later on you come tell me reasons, it's like so contradicting... Then she gave reasons like i wan to rest and study.. I mean can't you just spare one day or rather even few hours off the whole 168hrs? And everytime she says she's gonna study, she didn't mean it, cos few weeks ltr i ask her, she will say actually i didn't study=__= Why at these point of times, you never meant what you say, perharps, it's just a way to get around me... You dun wan to can just say dun wan to, dun have to come up with 101 reasons to explain to me why you can't go out with me de lurh... Then aft that she say i'm not EVEN going out with my friends, so she trying say her friends mean more to her..*point noted*. Then i was like suan ler larh, if i continue to persuade her, she will just give a dozens more reasons why she can't make it... What can i say lurh, nth to be exact... And and false hope is not given, it's created lurh, not given by you and created by me, so no matter what you do it doesn't affect...

Then with my quite fucked up emotions, my mother suddenly come order me go take something from somewhere. I mean i'm helping you hello?! You shld have at least ask and not order me around, all u always do is just ask me do this ask me do that.. Ask so much of me... Then when ur in low spirits, u just come scold me " Whatever i say no one listens, whatever u all says i must listen"... I was like hello? i nvr even ask ANYTHING from you ever since sec 2 okay?-.- Cos i know i dunnid anything except ... All along is my mum who asks of me and not me who ask of her. I never even request anything or what, can't you just let me do what i want to do, just a little more freedom is all i seek and choose the ppl whom i cld be with tgt, but yet all i get is all this shyt.

I was fuming mad when wj suddenly invited me to a msn convo... Then he was saying "now wad play pub?" Then Jameson:can wait tj... Then wj:ok then me u wq tj and jim pub... Then i was like wtf u dun wan me to play u still invite me to convo for wad bastard... So for the convos to come that he invited me yet again, i cldn't be bothered and i just quitted every one of them w/o a look at them. I mean what for when they just anger me even more.

There goes my first day of hols, like wth, started so terribly... I hope this doesn't snowball all the way till the end of the hols, cos if so, i rather be in sch sloggin' my life out. During this moments of my life, i just feel like i screwed up, so totally.

But luckily at night, Chloe suddenly, HELLO me lol=X Surprised indeed i was,cos she normally Boo! me one lol.. Then we joked like nobody's business and urh yep aft talking to her i felt much better, thankks Chloe(:
Then later on they invite me to a convo again, this time w/o wj :O Then Bryan and Tj started talking about the song Leave out all the rest =___= Then they start disturbing me... I mean i dun mind u all disturbing me, i can't be bothered but plz don't disturb her, cause the last thing i wanna do is to go around starting to shut ppl's mouth up through all means.. Yep and here's the lyrics for Leave out all the rest, the song which i left to rot on my friendster profile for a year now=X

Leave out all the rest
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

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Yep, i can't be who you are, i'm just me(: And i believe all along you never want me to change isn't it? enough of my blabbering about changes..>< And yeah i think she might just forget everything about me when it's time to leave this school... Just remember me when you're empty cause i'll be there for you(: but other times, i don't think i will be remembered. Sigh can't be bothered, i can't do anything about it anyway...

And and like yesterday, matthew said my blog was introspective :O HOW CAN IT BE lurh?! I just used simple words to express my simple world(: It isn't in-depth at all...

Labels: Blew It, Chloe, Freedom, Holidays, Lyrics