Yesterday didn't write anything because i was thrown the endless piles of homework.. Like hello it cost me another late night. I think i just nid one more to just collapse after that.. Yeah, so instead of phoning, i resorted to sms-ing, cause at least i could multi task.. hmm, then she told me a real story which ended up on the news. It goes sth like this.

There's this couple who were 16 years old, then they were caught by the gal's mother on the bed urh with one another then urh yeah they were doing that... By refering to that i think i need not elaborate any further... And then the gal's mother scolded the couple to the point the couple dunno smash the beer bottle then wad take chopper slash the mother 30 over times... It's a true story i suppose.. Yeah and this mother ended up in the hospital with 100 over stitches..

Yeah, though i was jking all the way as though i didn't take it seriously, but still actually i'm thinking deep real deep.. Firstly, if you were a parent and you bring up a child, you would only hope this child would turn out to be a successful, someone who is useful to the society.. So yeah, it's only right that she's angry and all, that this girl who did not maintain her purity i suppose, is that the correct phrase?o.O Of course, it's not that i'm saying it's wrong to do it before marriage or when you have found the right one for you, but still it's like you are suppose to do it with the person who is devoted to you, who is legally bind to you, whom you loved deeply and yet at the same time is not someone who just do for the sake of doing it.. Yeah i mean it's like a show of love and not for the sake of it, at the very least that's something in my opinion... Still compared with that, cruelty to own's parents are simply too unacceptable.. At the very least, you would not have the authority to even hit them.. What's more, talking about blades against the fragile skin... I'm simply disgusted. Besides, i believe these people aren't the only ones who are showing the disappointing side of humans, but they are many out there who illustrate the true nature of mankind, the ugly face (not literally) behind this hideous mask and they just simply made me lose my faith on people.
Something in which was mentioned on someone's blog whom i shall not add the name-"my dad says that the scariest thing on earth is not so much so as global economic crisis and such, but really, people."
Yes if you were to mention people, they are indeed sometimes the scariest thing on earth, though yet at the same time there were some who really cheers up your day and are always by your side.

In contrast with that, i heard this story which was told to the entire level of sec 4s.

There was this little girl who received her FIRST ever rose..
So she went home, told her daddy, "Daddy, daddy, i received my first rose!".
So the father asked,"oh, really? Can you give it to me, girl?"
The girl answered, " But that's my first rose.."
Father,"Orh then it's okay.."

So this girl went back to her room and stared at this rose, fantasising about her rose.. Then these thoughts came to her mind
No, i should give daddy since he sacrificed so much for me.
So she plucked off and gave it to her daddy and said
"Daddy, i'm gonna give you this petal for all the times even though when you were tired, but yet you still with all your efforts taught me my maths"
Then, she went back to her room and thought again.. So she plucked another petal off the rose and gave it to her daddy.
She said, " Daddy this is for the times you gave me nice birthday presents^^"
So this cycle continued and continued, until she ended up with the petals all in her dad's hands.

And here comes the moral of the story : it takes years for roses to bloom, and it takes tireless efforts, for e.g water the plant, take care of the plant and all for the rose just to have this short period when it bloom. So the thing is the teacher said erh ask us work hard and blah blah.

But no, that's not what i'm trying to focus here.. What this story brings out is truly the contrast between the first case and this.. How much the parents have given irregardless of whatsoever, and yet at the end they get appreciated, which in the first case instead of getting appreciated/ignored, the parent is being Hacked! Literally now-.-... and it's just.. I dunno how to further elaborate the anguish inside of me and yet can't help feeling sorry for the mother who out of love for her daughter scolded her and ended up in the hospital.

Ok, that was like a mini-lifeskills lesson but now, back to my life.. Yeah so yesterday ended abruptly with all these thoughts and the homework that i have to rush through.. More ever, i didn't do what i wanted to do ,which was to really talk to her. Kinda of a bad day actually cos i was on the bus THEN almost every other minute there are people trying to squeeze past me, sigh my big bag, time for a change lol, 12 more days to go, you've served me well over the 4 years haha ;x

So, today was pretty normal, morning like never wake up like that then bang-ed into someone and she dropped her artpeice ;x P.E->2.4 again=____= This time i did not obtain a "--:--" timing, instead i got a "16:30", still.. fail-.-.... 2 more minutes, orh 2 more minutes and we've got a drink, matthew and me ;O lol. H20. Dunno that Mr Ng confiscate from ppl one or wad LOL;x yeah, then i realised when you talk to him one to one his quite nice, but when he teaches the whole class.. one thing to describe-CMI..== yeah somehow all the pe teachers are very nice and how i got to know them is like it always follows this cycle ->hate them cause of their inflexible P.E lessons->then fail 2.4/ certain stations->retest->encouragements came along->know them better->found them quite good.. LOL. Ok, i have to say Mr Lum was an exception, cause i didn't fail anything when i was in sec 1 when i was still round XD Yeah then sec 2 also actually== Mr Lum->Ms Lee->Mr Neo-> Mr Lee->Mr Tan(the one wear SHORT shorts one, he gives very good warm up exercises which prevents muscle tears)->Mr Ooi-> Mr Ng... Hmm, yeah, that's about all the pe teachers i could remember.

Walked past her at the busstop. It was usual for me to restrain myself yet again, just cause her frens are around and i think they might just disturb her again. yeah, sometimes i really hope that i'm less sensitive to certain issues like this and be more sensitive to other issues like * i couldn't think of any examples right now *. Still is it worth it loving someone who seemingly doesn't care a shit about you. Someone who is laughing away when you are crying, someone who chooses to walk away from you when you need her most, someone who simply despise your presence cause you make things too awkward... But the problem with this is not for the fact how worth is it to give it my all, just not the worth but instead whether is it truly what i think i want to do in my heart.. Still, am i heading in the right direction? Will feelings ever grow? i just need to be appreciated, and yet.. orh wells..

Sometimes, i really find writing for an audience such a chore, because you got to take into considerations that what you write doesn't hurt another person, doesn't reveal too much of personal informations, doesn't affect any other people. At the same time afraid of some small comments that may come along anytime to make you stop and ponder over over the unnecessary... It is no wonder people kept their blogs private, all because of the very existence of these factors... Besides i realised i had visitors from U.S.A, Germany, Poland, Malaysia and lots more... Kinda of need to be rather careful with my words..

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Labels: Contrast, P.E, Worth