“因为是丑小鸭,所以不会有人在乎.因为是丑小鸭,所以永远不会有选择的余地.”

, Quoted from Christina's msn pm..

Is it really the case? That Ugly people isn't important to this world at all? Just because one's ugly that he/she is insignificant in this world? Just because he/she is ugly, he/she will never have the choice?
I seriously don't know... The quote is filled with so much uncertainty.. with 不会有人在乎 and 远不会有选择的余地, as though it's determined that the ugly duckling won't have a chance...Perharps, i'm the ugly duckling, one who never gets another chance, one who will never have a chance to choose. perharps, they say 丑人多作怪... Maybe is just true bah...

Was asked to do some Bio June paper cause i didn't do it in time for class on 14th August... So stayed back and then Mr Chan was like dam angry-.-... During recess i also very angry== Then i say if i gonna choose one subject to give up, that'd be Bio :O Then when we were supose to let him see our completed work, then i corrected him on some question... Then he was like see larh, dun do earlier...Then i just stun there-.-.. Then he explained that he nids to give the whle department's paper for MGS paper... Then he say wad he print the whole stack of MGS paper by himself.. I guess i could understand how he felt when 16 of us didn't do... Then he went on say,"Zhi Hua, your answers are quite good.." That stun me for another min...zzz, now that i decided i won't give up Bio, so i shall just move on... Perharps, words are a powerful tools... It could praise one to the sky and condemn one to hell... I just wish she would be the first and not the latter.

15th August, had S.S and Eng exam. One word, Screwed, so totally... Didn't even know what i'm writing. don't die also hard... She laughed and ran, i guess she's fine from the fever already barhx.. Didn't wave to her when she went up the bus because i know whether i wave to her or not, she still sees me as uninitiative. It doesn't matter. Anyway, i was 1/2 dead after the exam, energy level went below 1/4, very critical level... I've been feeling tired both mentally and physically... I need a rest...

16th August, woke up with a hangover cause i was doing something through the night, so slept late... Had quite a headache... Then i smsed her in the afternoon while i was busy filing my 2 years worth of work for S.S and History, sorting up every single thing... I asked how is she... but she didn't reply, probably cause she finds it bo liao barh... I seriously want to care for you okays... Sigh, suan ler, should just mug hard now... Seriously, doubt i can score well this prelims... Zhi Hua, wake up!!!

Faded Love by Manuel Rodrigues

Sitting silently on my bed
As tears rolled down my eyes
Just to remind the one I LOVE
At that movement I think of you,

Those lovely days
The sun was bright
And the sky was blue
You were in my arms
Promised to be forever mine
As everyday the sun shined
But how you forgot those lines,

As colors add beauty to painting
You were the only color of my life
Even it fades away
I think about the one
Who painted my life so beautiful?
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You were the colour of my life!!


The story of the ugly duckling and the butterfly... The butterfly is always high up in the sky because the duckling can never fly and reach the butterfly...

Labels: Failure, Tired, Uncertainty