Today is a bad bad bad bad BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD Day-____- We got scolded by every single teacher and then... Yeah, i got booked for the first time in my life..-.-... BT did it,lol, somemore is not like i didn't do his hwk, is just that i don't know how to do and i think there's no reliability part to that qn, so i didn't do, but end up, he thinks that all of us didn't do our hwk, sigh-.- Total of like 11 ppl got booked or something.. Orh wells, i don't care, so long as he don't disturb me anymore.. Sometimes, when you try to explain things, you just make it worse, so what's the point of explaining all these to him? It might just make things worse.

Went Back to my CCA today. It's like after so so so so SO SO SO long i didn't go back alrdy.. I think got 2 months alrdy, haha. Then i heard things abt this girl in Robotics x.x That some guy went up to her and ask, " will you be my girlfriend?" And then ended up she said,"Yes." And i think was like straightaway... Without even any restrain, she just said yes. I wonder what this girl is thinking but anyways, i thought when a guy ask this kind of qn, the girl is suposed to restrain herself for a bit, so all the more the guy will cherish her when they are together.. But orh wells, it doesn't matter if they truly love each other=X How i wish that she could say yes without any restrain, and i'm afriad to ask, because i'm afraid to face rejections, but No, i won't wanna regret this for life, that i left things unspoken.

And i asked. All those bullshits that so and so made up isn't true.. And i asked her a second time w/o knowing i did it... And then she thought i didn't believe wad she said. I've have never doubt what you say because i want to believe in every part of you =X is just sometimes i chose the wrong words to use and lead to further misunderstanding. Anyway, she said something like "since you don't believe i will go explain to him myself.", so i ended up explaining to this so and so to show that i believe in her but in the end, somehow this small efforts didn't get appreciated, not very much, led to another misunderstanding or sth...== But it ended up okay, not like anything happened,or quarrel or wadsoever. Sometimes, I feel whatever i do for ppl, they doesn't seem to appreciate it. Instead, they criticised this and criticise that, I wonder how this world works... When I try to be kind to others, it just doesn't pay to be kind, instead I was wronged, was found a bothersome.


If you can't have faith in what is held up to you for faith, you must find things to believe in yourself, for a life without faith in something is too narrow a space to live.
George E. Woodberry
I must have faith that it's possible between us so that i won't live in a narrow space and continue on, loving you...

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