I want to tell her many things, many many to the point where i don't know where to start. Maybe it's because there are too many things left unspoken, that's why i find that i have so much to say to her now.. But there's nothing i can do without her giving me a chance to do so. I've changed, no longer the ZH of the past, no longer the quiet and shy guy in the past, cause i really want to be with you, cause i never want to have regrets about anymore things in my life, so i wished that you would give me one last chance to do so. The ZH yesterday has died, but a new one has been reborned, why don't you even try to understand the new me before you make your decision? I pondered over it for a moment, only to realise that you didn't even know that i've changed.

I asked her to stay back for a while so that i could say what i want to say to her, but she said she's can't make it today and then later on she told me that she's tired and needed a rest because she didn't have enough sleep.. I mean can't you even spare 5 minutes from your sleeping time for me?:( Is listening to me so hard? i seriously don't know... 17minutes on the phone with her, i was like i broke the record... Because whenever i tried to talk to her on the phone, somehow it would just end up to become a conversation of a few minutes,probably because she's busy, but i don't blame her because we aren't even close.. but i was rather surprised when we could talk that long and i guess this just shows that we could communicate if we want to..

Labels: I Don't Understand, Love, Uncertainty, Wish