Yesterday, i heard from somebody that i'm being nicknamed '花花' by her.. Well actually she's been calling me that in front of her friends since way back... But i mean who cares is just a name...>< But what confused me was that that somebody told me that another person called me '花花公子' and it make things rather awkward for her and according to that person, she felt embarrassed and that she has feelings for me. Haix, make fun of my name dun have to go overboard right?! Of all things call me such names. Why at this point of time, it gave me such hopes, whether false or real, it's just extremely confusing. It made me even more helpless and don't know what to do...... Do i still stand a chance? Looking at the different views that different people have, it's just so so different. Maybe it's because they are made by different people, that's why. But why do they feel that you know i may still stand a chance?.. I seriously don't know since she find me so..*haix dun wanna say*

Looks like somebody is in the same situation as me-Kevin. He asked me about some stuff which really got me thinking. But well, he asked for her number and then asked her about whether what should he do. Then she said, well if he really likes her so much, then just go talk and be more 主动. That's probably what i'm lacking-Initiative. I mean i want to but i seriously don't know what might happen if it was a terrible rejection or anything like this. You know like "get away from me" that kind of thing. What should i do now? Pondering over something which i shouldn't right now just make me sink deeper into confusion.



Dear ** ***, I just don't know where we went wrong. I gave you my heart, i gave you my soul and i gave you... If only i know where i went wrong and i'm able to change for the better, for the sake of becoming together with you. If only..


"I Love You",8 letters, 3 words but 1 meaning.

I took 8 seconds to spell it, 3 seconds to read it, but until now, i'm still not able to understand it. Neither do i have the courage to say it because it takes a lot to face the consequences whether good or bad, i don't think i'm prepared for such an ordeal.

The Survey

Tagged by Jun Yan
1. Why do you study/work for?
- I study so that i could teach(:
2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
- There's no place i want to go yet.
3. What's your favorite thing to do?
- Eat, Sleep and Slack :D
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
- Yes and No because money can make certain things happen while certain things not.
5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
- I want her to be with me.
6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
- Yes when the day where money is no longer the currency.
7. What is your favourite body part?
- The eyes, it shows a lot.
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- Put them in the bank and use the interest to enjoy life (:
9. What is the most embarassing thing that happened to you recently?
- Rejection(sort of).
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
- His loyal, friendly and nice.
11. What makes you happy?
- The simplest thing - being loved.
12. What type of person do you hate the most?
- Hypocrites and people who gossips ):
13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
- I can't see it.
14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
- To be able to understand anyone and everyone.
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Her.
16. What do you do when you're alone?
- I think.
17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
- To be more initiative.
18. Do you prefer drama or anime?
- Anime.
19. What was your most unforgettable experience in school?
- An experience in the library when i was made fun off.
20. What makes a perfect bf/gf to you?
- Someone who can understand me well, caring and someone who loves me as much as i loved her.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.
Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. ( I'm lazy to do so ): )

Labels: Confusion, Uncertainty