Had Bio SPA today. It was rather okay considering the fact that it is much easier than the other 2 practicals. But the flame keeps extinguish itself when the peanut was alighted. I didn't tell my parents that i had SPA today and actually i felt more relaxes as compared to Chem Practical when i got all nervous and spurted the liquid out of the test tube.=.= I guess it's kinda of better when there isn't any external pressure on you to do well. Actually, this way we as students can perform better, provided the motivation is there.

C.C said the Phy paper was an easy one, but when today he got back his results, he got only 44/80! He must be trying to act as though he was so pro that he could demoralise people. But well now it's time we demoralise him lol! Maybe we have different definitions of easy but well who cares. Seriously looking at the results this MYE, it looks like we gonna die during the Os as in as a whole bunch of sec 4s. S2E's coming up, hope and think that i won't get into it. I don't understand why some people can lie right through their teeth. Someone lied to me without even a blink of the eye today. This just comes to show human nature. One of a black.

Mr Brian Tan asked us to do the psychology test yesterday. It goes something like draw you and an animal doing something. So i drew me holding a goldfish. Then a key,a house, a water body and a time of the day. So in the end when he revealed the answers, he said the animal is the future partner you hope to have and what you are doing with it is the type of relationship you hope to have with the animal and then he went on saying if you draw something cute like a goldfish, that means you would like your future spouse to be cute..-.- Then i thought for a while, am i really a sucker for cute girls?=.= Saying her cute seems to be insulting her and complimenting her at the same time,zz. But well, she's really kawaii when she pins up her fringe, at least to me =X Maybe i will sms her tommorow or sth cause i just can't take her off my mind now, even for a minute.T_T I miss her!

I've been staring at the road at the bus stop as usual until suddenly i felt like she was near, so i turned around and viola, she's behind me>.< I wonder whether is it i'm too used to it or what, knowing where is she. Well, the fact that she didn't even say hi didn't shock me, after all that had happened. She stood at the bus stop for a moment and then my bus came. So in hope of at least trying to salvage the relationship, i wanted to at least say a bye but then she sat down and looked away, away from the direction that i'm walking in. At that very moment, i think i understood everything. Morever, the timely arrival of someone who said " I will visit your blog, Zhi Hua." had further made me think twice about saying anything to her. Maybe i was wrong to reveal everything to the whole world because people who often gossips about other people had an adverse effect on our relationship. Sometimes, i really wondered whether what i had done wrong. When i did give her some space, it seems as though i don't care about her, but when i didn't give her any space, it upsets her, just what will satisfy her? I seriously don't know. She asked me to try and stop salvaging this relationship because it's impossible but truely, is there really no other way out? C.C came personally to tell me that she failed by 3 marks. Was it meant to be a personal attack? I don't know, maybe his just trying to make me jealous or maybe his just trying to feed me with informations. I've got a mouth to ask, so i don't need you to tell me! Besides i hope that she wouldn't take it to the heart and work harder next time, it's just 3 marks, she could have made it! I hoped to be the one teaching her, but i don't know, it's most likely impossbile since we hardly even talk now.

My mum has been blabbering about my results. The only thing between me and her is just results after results. Seriously, does parents only take us as machines that take exams and just cared about the results and forgets about the other parts of our life? She even questioned me why didn't i get back any results these two days. That comes to show that how much distrust she have in me. I was so angry that i said, you don't belive it you call the teachers. Silence filled the rest of the night.

Speaking about silence, the school has been rather peaceful with just sec 4s and 5s in the school. That comes to show that the majority of the noise comes from sec 3s, 2s and 1s. We sec4s are just a bunch of quiet creatures, at least in the sense not making so much noise.


I made a wish today yet again.

The busy day went just like standing in the middle of a moving crowd, but my feelings never fade......

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