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Back to the topic, Truth. Yes, it is people who contributes to the 'truth' and not the facts contribute to the truth. It is the very existence of self-centered people and their actions that contribute the 'hurt'. In this sense, knowing the truth means knowing the person deep inside out, because their true colours have shown. It is this disbelief of the true colours that the person possesses that truly hurted us after everything became clear.

If so, then the person hides behind a hideous mask behind his/her face at any point of time until somehow, you managed to excavate the 'truth' out of this person. But what's the purpose behind hiding a hideous mask when truly, you already know that you are a certain kind of person and blinds the public from knowing the truth side of you? At the end of it, it would normally boil down to people discovering the true side of you and starts to hate you because of that. I've known people who tries to hide their true colours behind a mask, but the effect differs on 2 different person : One knowing the truth and one who does not. The one who found out the truth was totally disappointed in this person whereas the one who was still in the dark feels that there's nothing wrong with the person and goes deeper into knowing this person. At the end, as he/she goes deeper, he/she will definitely find out the deeply buried truth, well hidden from everybody.

Yesterday night i sent a sms to her, but she doesn't seem the very least interested to talk. She replied with a short and precise sms. That's all. After which i continued asking her questions, but she didn't reply. It just shows that she just don't want me to think that she doesn't want to talk to me but yet she feels it that way. Why even bother about what i say when you don't even like me? Or perharps all this, is just what i feel, even so, she's telling me she's forgotten all about it? It just shows how little i meant to her, in the heart.

Went out for a family dinner to celebrate my aunt's coming birthday... We went some restaurant with rather nice seafood. I've observed quite a number of things througout the whole thing. Firstly, the arguement between my cousin and her fiance. They argued over small little trival stuff. It just shows me the fragil-ity of relationships. Breaks at the little little things yet built upon mountains of efforts. It takes a lot to build u a relationship and yet it just get destroyed over comments. But they were bonded enough i should say, able to give and take at the same time. Able to 包容 each other and not be mindful over the little comments, something in which i lack in my relationship especially the one with her. Then i saw another table complaining about the crab about what being too small and all. But seriously think about it this way, if the food isn't that nice then just don't patronise this retaurant next time, what for blabber over things that couldn't be held. Actually that's something in which i have been doing on this blog of mine isn't it? I've been ranting over things that i can't do a shit about and yet writing it here, does it really help? DOES IT REALLY HELP? NO? It just released my emotions a little.

Orh yar and people are saying i am emotional or emo which i think refers to overly emotional. So what if i am? It's a lot better than other people who are completely emotion-less, totally cold blooded, totally have disregard over things that's worth crying over, worth expressing your emotions over. It's not like i like being emotional, is just that that's what i'm truly made of, emotional on the inside and emotion-less on the outside. Because i want to protect myself from those **** who thinks that people who are emo are weak, so there's always a barrier that i built up due to the little faith i have in people, many in fact come to think about it now, it actually includes her. Who are you all to judge who i truly want to be i ask? All i can say is you are nobody to do so. Just cause i'm overly emotional over you and that **** doesn't mean that i'm paraniod, is just that you meant to me so much that i won't want to lose you to that guy which now i already did. I probably need to organise my emotions after my 'O' levels.

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To the world, you may be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.
I guess the last sentence do not apply to me. Not at this moment of life


There are 6 billion people in this world, but sometimes all you need is just 1 person to hold you close and say that he/she loves you. Yes, there are 6 billion people in the world, but is it so hard to find 1 out of these 6 billion people to say that they love you? Every single day, we meet so many different people but is it too much that everyday someone comes up to you and say that they love you? I don't really expect anyone to say that everyday to me but at the very least not say/show that they hate you, it just makes me feel saddened..

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