Saw my ex classmate Wei Sheng on the Bus today. I guess i was too engrossed till i forgot to tap my ez-link card, i'm so blur haha=X Today was a tiring day, it doesn't seem to flow smoothly and i can't really concentrate on my work.

Just what is happening to me? Not being able to focus at this crucial period, when Chinese O levels is just 5days away from now. Just what am i doing? Thinking about things that aren't necessary. Confused over certain things that i need not be. Maybe is because i walked right through her conversation when she and her friend were queuing up for their food. Maybe that's what's been bothering me all along. It's just disturbing, slightly. i felt like i'm just a dispensable person, able to be disposed of as and when she likes because she doesn't seem to be affected at all.
I prayed for a chance yesterday, indeed i was given an opportunity to speak to her today, but i didn't make full use of this chance, instead i just walked away. I guess is not that fate is not on my side, but is just something inside of me that restrains me from proceeding on. Gave many excuses for not going up to her, but many were just unreasonable come to think of it now.

S2E's namelist came out today... I'm sure i won't be inside but then what about her? My heart is just filled with questions, many concerning her, but it's just hard to talk it out with her. What is it that's been stopping me? What can i do even at this point when i don't even know the reason that caused me to feel this way? All i can do is hope and hope...


The worst feeling is not death,
It is knowing that you aren't needed,
That you are alone in this world,
and that you no longer have a reason to live.
It's worser than death, Much more.

Labels: Look Away, Love