Posting again. Somehow i always do it at night..>.< Well well, let's see. This weekend so many homework larh. Got so many maths maths and more maths. Mr Ganesan trying to kill us all larh. Actually my bad for not doing it during the weekdays haix. Weekday just feel so tired after returning from school.. Dunno why also. Last year also not like that even though got more tests than this year. Maybe i've grown old-.-

I hope Sunday will be a time for me to do my reflections for the week. So i will be posting during weekends but during weekday, not so sure.

I remembered Mon, people asked me. Did i ever thought i might marry her. Though i didn't say yes but well actually i did. But well, she says it isn't possbile. Not between us. Just what is wrong. No matter how much i tried, it's like no use.

Sigh, I blew it again ytd when smsing her. I've always tried so hard but i just dun undestand why she always have to say all these at this point of times? I've never said sorry so many times to one person before.. I said it the most to her.. There's no way to salvage.. IS THAT ALL YOU COULD THINK OF? Is that what you always wished? Then good for you, you've done it. Does everything just ends with a "forget it". Do you really think forgetting it solves everything. After i've tried so hard to find a way to save this, you never fail to dash this hope, never attempt to give. Never.

Watched Deathnote 2. Though didn't catch Deathnote 1 last week but well i still could see the storyline. Misa's so silly, willing to sacrifice half of her lifespan for Light, the one she loves. People who die for love looks silly to us, the people observing but frankily, to them i guessed they did it willingly, without asking anything for return, without a care of what will happen to them, just out of love. Sometimes, this kind of thing is a two way. People observing tends to see more because they see what the lovers don't see but they also dunno anything beccause only the lovers know what's really going on between them. So it's like people who are observing see lots and yet nothing. Same goes for the 2 person involved in the relationship. You think you understand a lot but actually you don't.

Cried. Not cause i'm weak. Cause i really missed you...

When darkness turns to light, tonight ends. And so tommorow begins. What will the future hold? I dunno but i hope definitely the next day, the first person i see when i wakes up is HER.

Labels: Reflections