All the birds are flying in the sky and you wonder if you should flap your wounded wings and try to take flight, because you got to bear with the pain, if not you'll get left behind.

My stomach has been hurting since morning that I feel like just lying on my bed for the whole day. It's damn !@#$ !@#$ painful at times that I think I might not make it past the minute. I don't know what's happening to me, I thought not feeling my heart there was bad enough, now I couldn't even feel my stomach. FML.

“ There are two kinds of love…in the safe kind you look for someone who’s exactly like you. It’s what most folks settle for. But then there’s the other kind of love. Everyone’s born with a ragged edge, and some folks crave that piece that’s a perfect fit. You’ll search for it forever, if you have to. And if you’re lucky enough to find it, it looks so right, you start to tear at your own seams, thinking, maybe I could look just as perfect. But then, of course, when you try to get close to their other half, you don’t fit anymore. That kind of love…you come out of it a different person than you were when you started. ”
— Jodi Picoult

I think someone different can make you see a different side of yourself. My teacher once said don't settle for the mediocre, always dream big and reach for the stars. I'm tired of trying and falling. Wound that doesn't feel, hurt that doesn't kill.

Haha well we get blinded by love, and then when it doesn't go our way, we start thinking if it's really love.
-xingya

Truth is, it always happens and sometimes I wonder if it's the reluctance to recognise that you loved but it isn't going your way, that you deny that it ever happened to make yourself feel better. Then you question over and over again, what actually is love, when you already experienced it. Thanks XY, I feel better now, really. I don't think ignoring each other would help ease feelings, it just strains friendships and come to think of it makes the heart yearns for even more.