Sometimes i really think my being is like so insignificant.. I mean if i were to disappear from the face of this Earth right now at this moment, i doubt there would be much impact.. I mean people won't exactly care or whatsoever. Like you're gone and that's it. As i watched the motorcycle zoomed past me like at 80km/h, i thought if i'd take a step forward and boom, there i go right?.. It's just a second and i'll vanish. But what other facts would this change? Perhaps, nothing. Yeah, it's actually called, no one will shed a single tear for you even if u just collapse right at this moment.(:

Ahh, you must be thinking of me in a emo situation, whereby i have a knife right beside me and i'm gonna cut myself anytime soon.. Nah, i don't have a knife with me.. As least it doesn't serve the purpose of cutting myself even if i do-.-" I'd probably keep it for my enemies :D Orh wells, that is to say i have any.. Haha, this post is so contradictory and insignificant in a sense.

Back to what i call my life. It's Chinese first thing in the morning. I realised my passion for the subject is gone, like totally. It's no longer a lesson i like to sit in, no longer a language i like to speak, no longer something i wanna work for... Ahh, i so hate Chinese now.))): Forget it, it's not like anyone'd understand this love-hate relationship. So it's PE next. Guys were supposed to slack since we took our 2.4 already.. But ended up cause i can't pass my pull ups, i ended up doing what 30x3 push ups, 50x3 pulling thing along the bleachers and 6x3 assisted pull ups-.- After that my hand was like trembling... Imagine your mind not functioning at all and your hand shaking and you have to write a timed graded GP essay after 20minutes break, followed by a Econs test... I wonder how the teachers gonna read my shaky handwriting -.-"

Orh yeah, i slammed the door on Joel today-__-" Somehow i knew something stupid is gonna come out of his mouth, so i ran for my life i guess?.. Orh wells, it's like i lost respect for my seniors somehow, not that i want, it's just natural reaction... I need to learn. Cause of past reactions.

Ahh what a day...

I'm invisible
And not invincible.
To you.

My significance is just insignificant.

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