Today i found out that i'm on duty this Sat. It'd probabaly burn my Sun too by making the week's weariness carried forward to Sun. Then i'll just end up sleeping my Sun away, like i always did. Alternatively, i could risk the possibility of the next week being a terrible week ahead and not rest.

Still i've been leading sad birthdays ever since Sec 1... It's either we're going through papers,having mid year exams, orals, even on sats. What's worse is the situation that i'm in during these times.. Still, many a times i think is life fair to me? Or maybe as we grow, we are destined not to have birthdays where we can celebrate, since it becomes something that's not worth rejoicing about. Or perhaps, it's just me.. It's just things never will go my way. And it's just disappointing how birthday wishes no longer come true. Maybe because of that i told myself i got to treat myself to something to make this a better day. So i got myself a 3-in-1 Riceballs? Apparently it's consist of soya milk,riceballs and beancurd hmm. Yummy! I guess sugar rushes do help at times, especially when i'm low in morale. Cause i guess this year's birthday will never be the same, NEVER. I've a feeling it'll get worse, but still..

The times i spent thinking about You is more than the time i spent thinking logically. All i ever feel now is irrationality and this irrationality never fails to bring me away from reality. At the end of it all, i hope i'm living in my dreams, but still wishes my dreams will come true. Ahh, what ambivalence. Anyway,k.suki desu. And i hope to regain that lost feeling once again.

Labels: Irrational