'Things lost are lost forever'

I mean certainly not all things lost are lost forever, but mostly they are, especially when it comes to things that can't be bought with money, for example, time, love, care and concern. Actually, in my opinion i lost almost all of them. I don't have time to study or do the things i like, i lost the one that i most loved ( at least it seems to be that way), didn't really have people to care and be concern about me when i'm seriously down.

But well, i don't see the reason to get all upset over all that she's done, though the pain never fails to tug at my heartstrings every now and then, whether is it seeing her or is it just thinking about it. I've lost it all, blew it and most unfortunately lost myself. I'm no good without her but what is there to do about it? She just treats me like her arch enemy, at least it seems that way again. The Sec 2 class photo is always right in front of my eyes, on the table and seen me through all these while i really missed her. Looking at those smiles, it never fails to cheer me up for a bit because at least now i know, she's at the very least happy and contented with her life, just that she's tired of studying, something in which i already started to exprienced a year back, questioning myself on the reasons to study. I'm always linked to assumptions, is that what my weakness lies in, or is it just that there's prejudice against me, i don't know.


Talking about prejudice, it reminds me of the english results we going to get back tommorrow. I'm not a good speaker, nor a good writer, so i really hope a miracle would happen and brighten up my life for just a bit. Ms Liang returned us the Chemistry results. She looked at me for a while and asked, " Zhi Hua, are you okay?" Wondered why almost all the teachers found me not to be in a 'okay' state after i received back my papers. I mean i did quite well in my opinions but is just a missing jigsaw puzzle in my heart, something empty in which nothing except her could fill it up.


A Day Without Your Love is A Day Without Life

Maybe i've never felt her love for me, just not yet but it's something in which i've been really wanting to experienced, even just for once. I left my tears on the table @ 10:37pm yet again.

Labels: Love, Prejudice